LOL So DIVAS lets talk relationships. One thing is for sure my horizon has definitely been expanded in that area as I have come in contact with an AMAZING person. Not what I expected or necessarily asked for but actually the complete opposite. I've realized in getting closer to this individual, that there were a few things I needed to let go. First thing first I had to uncover my ears(yeah the first night we meet my ears were shut). The way we met was crazy. We both agree to this day that it was divine intervention because neither one of us were going to go to the place we met at that night. secondly I had to realize he was human and not a "dog" per se. I actually was still holding grudges against a past guy..we weren't in a relationship however, we got pretty close and he hurt me..i'll admit it (I've grown in that area too at first I couldn't admit that I'd been hurt) But one thing about this person is that he was persistent. He loves Jesus and devotes his life living a Godly life and one that is pleasing to the Lord.(LITERALLY) His approach was genuine. At first it caught me off guard you know? I'm not gonna lie I was frightened at first. Waiting, begging, praying for something to go wrong. Here it is going on 8 months of us knowing each other and things are still just as consistent as it was the first day we met. When I finally realized I could trust him which was VERYYYYY difficult for me to do because I expected his interest to fade..You know how guys get, they may be consistent one day then see someone else the next. So I was anticipating on that to happen and thats when he said to me "I'm not going any where" As cute as that was lol I was thinking like wow God how did he know to say that." Well then again, there is one pending factor that would cause him to know that ;) But when I realized I could trust him, I was able to slowly uncover my heart. I'm still in that process. But honestly he has been an extremely positive addition to my life and I cannot imagine him out of my life at this point. Part of me laughs at myself and how anti-EVERYTHING i was. There was actually a point where I was like "I can't do this, its too perfect and something is going to go wrong" I had these thoughts and told him I wanted to kind of give our friendship a break. THOSE WERE THE HARDEST THREE DAYS OF MY LIFE lol..thats right it only lasted three days. Those three days as I spent much needed time in prayer. I realized that NOTHING WAS WRONG. I panicked. I realized how much I cared for him. How much I just wanted him in my life. I bet God was looking like this poor child lol. I found myself having to reach out to him, which was hard because I never had to take the initiative on anything concerning guys.Right now things are pretty much at a steady paste. We are both busy people so things are steady. However things are still fabulous. My thing about relationships is that you don't have to compromise certain qualities. Even though he isn't exactly what I asked God for(insider lol we laugh at this too) in a sense he is. Its always best to pray, be patient, and wait on God. And there is no rush. So thats where I'm at. God hasn't spoken to me against him but actually said in due time and to be patient. Which is the beautiful thing about keeping God at the center of everything and second to absolutely NOTHING!!!!. That way you avoid a lot of mistakes. If you are unsure about an individual PRAY. shoot if YOU ARE SURE PRAY! and if you are compromising major things, thats a NO already. Now somethings of course will be compromised. For example: I needed to learn how to communicate and express myself verbally. Overall I have really matured as a person in this, allowed myself to move from the past let go and be free...it really is a beautiful thing